A Different Now ~

A Different Now ~

I’ve just spent not quite three weeks in a power spot. Three weeks! Imagine! So much has shifted and changed it doesn’t bear tracking. I recalled, at one point, wondering what it would be like to live in such a place. Longing for it, in fact. Funny, when our dreams come true. Can one live in a crucible for any length of time? I’d like to find out. So would some of you. BUT we have to be kinder to our bodies. Letting a power vortex have its way with you isn’t always pretty. Shit happens. Sometimes literally. Always emotionally. And that is a good thing in a world where real feelings are suppressed and false ones harvested, more than not.

Entitlement, Reparations & Repairs ~

Entitlement, Reparations & Repairs ~

Since the Equinox, so for a fortnight or so, I have had bouts of memory show up. Memories of this life, mostly, thank goodness! It gets a little crazy-making when they show up from many all at once. And, I notice, the scenarios or montages are showing up in neat packages of threes. SHE is employing one of HER attention-getting devices. We have that one worked out, my mind, my awareness, my body and SHE. Though, as I am in blissful, much-needed stillness next to the sea, my heart is rejoicing, still these memories pop in.

I sometimes feel that SHE chooses moments when we are harmonized and at peace to show us things we would rather not remember or things we fear to see. I lost the fear of remembering anything long, long ago now. And so, I am more like Alice when the memories come. “Curiouser and curiouser.”

What To Do ~ "Take Heart"

What To Do ~ “Take Heart”

I’ve been asked that, over and over through the years, “what do I do?”. There is, literally, only one answer. Take heart. Take HER heart. It is ever freely offered.

The awakening process is, first and foremost, a process. There are no silver bullets, or instant manifestations, though the latter do show up from time to time. And, awakening is not achieved by an arduous climb up an impossible mountain, in search of an elusive promised treasure at the top. For those who buy into that myth, there will ever be mountains. I’ve enjoyed a good climb or three. And yet…

When SHE shows The Way, it is through the heart. Courage. A quality so-named for its resonance with “La Cœur / La Corazón”. “The heart”, in many languages. I used to think courage meant facing down all inner and outer demons no matter what or when. Funnily enough, it does, but not in any way my mind might have imagined. I imagined taking the bullets for the team, being the one to wear the Kevlar, making the ultimate sacrifice (du jour) in honor of the light… and so it does… but not that way.

There is another way.

HER way is that of steadfastness, yes; of forbearance, yes. Of martyrdom? NO!!!! No, no, no, no! Step away from the fires, children! The Divine Mother is a nurturing, guiding, gentling force. An Invincible Force, she is though. Once summoned, nothing stands in HER way.

SHE beckons us to follow our hearts. These paths, and there are oh, so very many, always lead us home. The heart leads us into HER, into HER heart.

There is heart in the natural world, the rocks, the seas, the earth, the trees and the creature beings, our allies, one and all! Last year, I was privileged to enjoy Elephant Dream-time. Sacred space, if ever was. The whales hold the same space, but in a different way. Their songs weave the world as one. This year I am further privileged to enjoy ‘roos, koalas, and cockatoos… imagine, to greet these beings in the wild! Oh frabjous day! A friend from the southern hemisphere, visiting me in California, felt the same way about raccoons, skunks, and foxes. How amazing to experience them as beings rather than photographs!

Today, I am privileged to be able to see the sea from this window, behind whose glass I am protected from cold, wind, and wave. And yet… HER waves are always with me. I feel the wind as its currents lift the air. I feel the waves and the light thereon. So do you, truth be told. You feel the growing movement of the trees, the greening and browning of the standing people, as Gaia’s seasons flow and change.t

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I feel the movement of wind and light on water, even from where I sit. This is HER heart. We reside in HER heart, yet, so often, we recognize it not.

What rests in your heart today? Are you willing to let it out to play?

Mother made me. I am SHE. I am grateful.
Nalini

Divine Feminine Enlightenment ~ Embodiment 'by any Other Name' ~

Divine Feminine Enlightenment ~ Embodiment 'by any Other Name' ~

The light ladled through me has shifted hues, tonalities, tracks, trajectories, currents, and, even, seas. Over the decades, SHE has deepened within me as SHE does within us all. I have offered HER teachings in various forms, through various classes, and in transmissions that only a few have truly acknowledged and received.

The receiving thereof doesn’t matter. That sounds odd, perhaps, as what matters manifests. But it is true. My ‘job’ is the embodiment and delivery of HER love. It has gone through many iterations, as there are so very many ‘ears to hear.’ It is not my job to manage how HER gifts are received. Light is intelligence. It knows what to do, the how, the when and the articulations thereof.

Years ago, as my deeper awakenings began, I offered myself to HER. My lineages, all that I had been taught, though always filtered by HER, had been of the masculine ilk. Such is the false light (and, some of the true) on this world.

When the Cookies Crumble ~ Solving for "X"

When the Cookies Crumble ~ Solving for "X"

What a year it has been thus far! It’s a good thing we like change, yes? No need to worry about living on and among the crumbs anymore, and giant ants are only science fiction!

How to get from HERE { point A, where you seem to be now} to THERE {point B, where you seem to want to be}? Solve for X. “X” represents the chasm between where you believe you are now and where you want to be or what you want to become.Solving for “X” is the process you go through to get from point A (where you think you are) to point B (where you want to be).

Is the multiverse that mathematical? Yes and No, Either, Neither, and All Three. Welcome to the quantum leaps of the day to day. For every “X” there are Infinite solutions.

Plumbing the Depths of Feeling ~

Plumbing the Depths of Feeling ~

Before you roll your eyes and ignore this, or save it for when you have a glass of something in hand…know that the way to clarity is through the heart.

Sometimes the heartache we try to avoid is the catalyst that takes us to a higher level of feeling.

Today I watched The Notebook for the first time. I know, I’m a Martian. I had never seen it and needed something in the background while I ploughed through a pile of editing. The film seemed to highlight, along with the tear-jerking Hollywood agenda from which I remained thankfully immune, how painful and yet powerful love can be.

As the pain of how much we love is part of what is churning up at the moment, I thought to write about it.

There is an ocean of grief to be traversed as we awaken. As sensitives, as streaming beings of love-light, we come into this world with no comprehension that what we know love to be could possibly become so distorted, twisted, and subverted into misery. We grieve this condition early and we grieve it long.

We are conditioned to take on and to carry the “grief of the world” in our emotional and physical bodies. We receive this conditioning through genetic inheritance, familial imprinting and social norms. Women, in particular, and also the “feminine” in men, are heavily programmed to take on this grief and carry it.

You have, perhaps, heard of “emotional weight”? Many of our overweight or over-burdened conditions have to do with carrying the weight of excess emotions, most of them not our own.

As we dissolve our egoic programming and conditioning, the iceberg of our unconscious starts to rise above the surface of the world’s collective seas. As this happens, we are confronted with the “ocean of grief” we carry as part of our unconscious and subconscious patterns and in our emotional bodies. Global warming is not the only culprit in rising coastal waters!

The way out of the churning emotional waters is, like it or not, through them. As we meditate, and the grief moves through us, we first have to recognize what is happening. “There is grief moving through me/my body.” Next, we need to be as still as possible, open our hearts to Source and let HER open us to the feelings pouring through. No one ever wants to do this. No one ever wakes up without getting through this.

This can’t be saved for “next time,” or some other year or lifetime. Every time it comes back around it comes stronger. The longer one waits, the more feelings there are to move. Best to get on with it when it begins. the “ocean of grief” feels endless. It feels as though we will drown and be swallowed up forever in endless grief. This is not so. The grief is finite. Knowing that got me through. Perhaps it will help you as well.

As we become still and let the grief move, we appear to sink deeper in. Using the image or metaphor of the ocean can help. As the feelings threaten to overwhelm, let yourself sink deeper. Eventually you will touch bottom. And then, something amazing happens.

When I was a little girl, I used to swim to the bottom of the pool, all the way at the farthest edge of the deep end. I loved the light moving through the water above me. I loved the stillness. I loved the peace. And, I learned a lot about breath control, as a side effect! ;)

When you touch bottom in the “ocean of grief”, the bottom opens up and you fall through in a rain of sand and starlight. Before this happens, however, the waters will seem to overwhelm you. Everything goes darker and darker until you surrender. {Hint: Surrender early!} When you surrender to HER process, you will observe that the waters recede, dry up, or seem to disappear. What was underneath this ocean that was never yours to carry, was always a quiet ecstasy. Peace. Forgiveness. Joy. LIGHT.

Once fully traversed, the “ocean of grief” never affects you the same way again. You can view the immersion of others with both compassion and dispassion, understanding the illusion and the pain. There will no longer be any need for you to carry that weight in your bodies, ever again. You will be able to look on with love and laughter, encouraging others to make the crossing, or simply observing as they find their way.

Wallowing in grief, or other so-called negative emotions, serves no one, least of all yourself. The way through this crossing, this churning before the Equinox window, is to feel deeply, whilst letting go.

Where do you feel grief? Remorse? Anguish? Where do you lack self-forgiveness? This is what weighs you down and keeps your life from taking off in magical directions. This is what is up for clearing in each of us and in the collective. Carrying the collective is not your responsibility. Never was. Never will be. No one’s collective, not even your family’s. Especially not theirs. Trust me on this.

Planetary energies are transitioning, regardless of anyone’s evolution, experience, or endurance levels. You have all three.

What are you waiting for?

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And if you need an encouraging hand, a laugh to get you through… I’m here waiting.

Love
Nalini





Stillness in the Heart ~

Stillness in the Heart ~

The way to let Stillness guide you through any storm, to let it be the eye of the hurricane, is to cultivate the sacred space of the heart. The heart, and we’re not talking about the physical muscle here, though there are parallels, is the gateway to the worlds of the awakened. Cultivating the heartspace within is a bridge that opens into the Divine Mother, the pure, clear, light.

The world seems to be having a full-blown panic attack. Life is imitating hell in new and terrifying ways, in the collective and, some days, in our personal arenas. How do we navigate this, at all, and with any kind of ease and grace? As with all things, the “how” is up to HER. Source’s job, not ours. To bridge the gap between the day to day consciousness of wanting to “do” and HER grace, we need to cultivate sacred space.

Stalking Our Stories ~

Stalking Our Stories ~

What do you still want to impress? How aware are you, of the implications of the stories in your head? Some of this type of seeking has to do with respect or admiration or career advancement. Some is more subtle. Most of what is up in the collective is both more obvious and more subtle and definitely all-pervasive. Over the full moon I noticed that leftover trauma imprints were shaking loose within my physical and emotional bodies. Shaken, but not yet stirred. What would it take to stir them to the surface?

On Dreaming

On Dreaming

SHE has asked me to write about the awake state. I don’t write about anything else, truly, but there is a way of putting things directly that I have long avoided.

Sometimes, when I sit to write for you, there are the obvious things “up.” Things that have come up in sessions over the past week, or all.the.things. that are wonky in a world gone weird. Over the past three days, SHE has moved so quietly through me…

What it Takes to Be Awake ~

What it Takes to Be Awake ~

When I sat down to write this week’s blog SHE said to write about living awake. SHE pretty much hammers on about that these days. It isn’t about the party tricks, the phenomena, the miraculous occurrences, the healings or anything we think it will be about… Living awake is a one step at a time flow of HER frequencies.

SHE asked that I write about dabbling, playing, spiritual tourism, and other things that can be side trips. SHE mentioned, for the thousand and fiftieth time this week, how important this year is for making critical choices. Not self-criticizing choices, mind you, not judgemental choices. The opportunity this year is in discernment. Time to learn what works for you in every area of life. Better yet, time to learn what it takes to know what is going to work in pretty much any moment. Not as impossible or tedious as it might sound. This is what it takes to live awake.

So you say you want to live awake…and we know the “how” is up to Source… What next? What are the steps to take? The trickiest part of answering that question is that it depends on you.

Imbolc ~ The Deep Breath Before the Plunge

Imbolc ~ The Deep Breath Before the Plunge

It’s groundhog day! Also known as Imbolc and Brighid’s Day… more to the point.

I awoke in tears this morning. And not because of any adventures in the dream planes. Odd, that, because this particular observance… groundhog day… typically starts my waking hours with laughter. That, thanks to the acting prowess of Bill Murray and Andie McDowell, in the film by the same name. One of the more spiritual films, ever, and hilarious to boot. And, there is a featured Scottie, if you know where to watch for it! But I digress…

On Guidance ~

On Guidance ~

Most people think guidance is only about the big stuff, or, perhaps that is when we ask the loudest.

We badger Source over the big life decisions, and, typically, forget to surrender the every day ins and outs of life.

On Gratitude ~

On Gratitude ~

Have you ever noticed what real gratitude can do? The difference it makes in your life? As we learn to trust, we simultaneously learn about the essence of being grateful. These states of being, these frequencies, go hand in hand. One of the practices that SHE expresses through me is that of “Thank you that this is so.” Thanking the Infinite for what you have expressed as yearning or desire or preference, even when the proof and evidence is elusive or not showing up in the physical world. Not yet. Perhaps not yet. It is never a test. It is always a gift.