A Test of Commitment ~

A Test of Commitment ~

Occasionally the moment arrives when our commitments to Spirit are tested. These moments rarely come in the ways we have been conditioned to believe they will. SHE does not ask us to martyr ourselves, to take on the pain of others, or to take on or carry anything we cannot handle. And SHE does not ask us to handle anything where SHE is not totally present, supporting us all the way.

A test of commitment comes as a validation of structural integrity. Is what we are building able to hold the weight of our convictions? Is our love strong enough? Will it hold up to what we ask of ourselves and our dreams?

Double Binds, Deadly Embraces ~

Double Binds, Deadly Embraces ~

A double bind in energy occurs when two equal and seemingly opposite vibrations are simultaneously locked together in a deadly embrace and pulling apart from one another with equal force. Maximum tension with both maximum and no effort involved. A perfect storm.

These locks in our programmed awareness form our deepest traps, tripwires, glitches and uncomfortable scenarios of every kind. They also form the foundations of what we know as real.

B.elief S.ystems ~ and how they function ~

B.elief S.ystems ~ and how they function ~

And why this is important.

A belief system, abbreviated B.S. in English, and on purpose, is a thought pattern that we argue for. There is benefit in our holding on. We are conditioned to believe that this is factual, true and our needs must keep it in place. Calling ‘bullshit’ here! Belief systems distort our perception of life.

When we have fixed belief systems, things can only be delivered to us through the gates of those systems. It is we who have set this up.

What I Know for Sure ~

What I Know for Sure ~

It’s all coming together. It’s all coming together. It’s all coming together!

I know it looks grim out there. Some days, internally as well. There will be shakeups and shakeouts and sorting and purging. The burning of Notre Dame cathedral, for example, is interesting in many dimensions. The overlays are {for the most part} burned away. ‘Our Mother of Paris’ is being returned, as a power spot, to the simplicity of Isis.HER ascended configuration. This has not been seen or felt on this world… for some time? Perhaps ever.

Do you recognise the starlight within you? You will. You will, indeed.

On Surrendered Power ~

On Surrendered Power ~

The sweeping wave of universal Yin, within which flows the All.

What is that wave? ‘They’ call it surrender. Light calls it intelligence.

How to Receive HER Unconditional Love ~

How to Receive HER Unconditional Love ~

Yes, I used the ‘how’ word! My students are practicing not using that in their questioning. An interesting exercise. The mind wants to know HOW. How will this happen? How do I do this? How will transformation occur? What SHE offers is this: “The HOW is up to me. I AM the Doer. I AM the flow. Your configuration directs it, in part, through your preferences and liabilities. Why not give its direction to me?”

So, back to the subject of this post. What is HER unconditional love and what has to happen for you to receive it at all, let alone unconditionally. You guessed it! Surrender. Here is HER how.

A Balance of Power ~

A Balance of Power ~

What does a balance of power look like? Feel like? What does it mean? How does it function? There are as many theories about this as there are minds to cook them up. What if it is time to move beyond the theoretical and into the practice of power?

In most patriarchal structures, balanced power means that the masculine controls everything, fueled by the feminine (though that is rarely admitted to) and any offspring therefrom (human, product, or otherwise) represents balanced energy. Isis, Osiris, Horus, is one example. Most predate our so-called modern religions, by the way.

In the Goddess traditions, the Goddess is said to hold the balance between good and evil, predator and prey. She stands, adamant, holding a space for balance. Examples of this, are Ma’at, the Egyptian Goddess whose scales are said to weigh souls departing the earth plane against a feather. “Blind Justice” is a more modern aspect of this archetype. Her scales are said to tell the truth. But is it a balanced truth? How would blindness ever accurately perceive?

Do any of our historical models represent balanced power? It is said that our world needs to shift from a love of power to the power of love. Clever cliché. And, in my humble observation, a bit lacking.

Divine Love is the creative power. It has been, in limited ways, by limited minds, vastly misunderstood.

Guided by Grace ~ Navigating the Shift

Guided by Grace ~ Navigating the Shift

Given: The world is going through a dark night transit and the energies thereof are accelerated for the next three months.
Solution: Let Grace guide you through.

What does that mean and what does it look like? Let’s start at the beginning. What do you want for the rest of this incarnation?

Caveat: Insider information: This incarnation is unique in that we have the opportunity to shift not only our lessons for this life but those for/form all of our lifetimes. Why would anyone want to do this? It opens us to more grace, to the realms of enlightenment and the full cellular embodiment thereof… which is where SHE is taking the light on this world… whether anyone is ready or not.

If you are still reading, you might be at least willing, if not ready. SHE assures me this is so.

A 'Star Wars' Reset~

A 'Star Wars' Reset ~

It took awhile for the “Star Wars Day” thing to make sense to me. My first thought was, “silly,” then it became hilarious and, therefore, made more sense. Brilliant marketing strategy and something the SW generations could laugh about together. Another blessing .

I spent yesterday walking my blessings. A thing I love to do. The walk involves favorite places, doings, and beings. In the physical, if possible, and in essence, when not. It is a walk of gratitude.

Some gratitude walks involve an inner repetition of “Love and Thank You” with every step. Invoking HER Grace and Wisdom. With each foot fall, I make the time to pay attention. Blessing HER, blessing Gaia, for how richly supported we all are. It was a good day. A wonderful day, in fact. And that made me wonder why every day has not seemed to quite measure up, if you know what I mean.

Why has each day not been experienced as “wonder-full”? More and more, as my shift in consciousness has deepened, I have experienced wonder. Wonder as a state of being, rather than as gobsmack or the act of wondering. I do experience the magic, the light, HER music, in each and every day. And yet, I notice that the collective habit of negative framing, down-playing, and focusing on what needs fixing tends to color the periphery of my awareness… if I do not gently, and thoroughly, sweep it away.

Life is truly about the little things. The love I exchange with the tree outside my window and the landscape beyond. The time I make, even if minutes only, to practice some chi gong and yoga to bring light and life force into my body. My muscles giggle like children as the light is given center stage. Favorite foods consumed with consciousness. Favorite experiences, same.

Are there things I still do unconsciously? Most likely. We are conditioned to be creatures of habit. We are taught, by action and inference, that habits are an efficient form of life management. Learn how to tie your shoes and you will do it automatically and never have to think about it again. Is this practical? Only when thinking is your guide. Actions performed automatically, without having to think about them, have been held up as better and more efficient. Why? Because we can then perform an action automatically while thinking about something else. Or so we have been conditioned. What if we performed an action with no thought at all?

There is a difference between thinking about something, mistaking that for focus, and being with that same something, keeping our awareness present in the moment.

When we learn something new, our minds need to flow through the process, step by step. Do you remember how you learned to tie your shoes? Probably not. That process is now so internalized that your mind no longer needs the step by step data. Or, you wear non-lacing shoes. Me too, most of the time. Easier on and off, and mine come off frequently!

Internalizing action steps is one of the ways consciousness builds upon itself. An internalized skill is something we become. Do we become the shoe-tying process? In that moment, yes, when we infuse essence into action without thought. Optimal action happens when we act from the impulses of essence, without thinking. This flies in the face of so much of what we are taught, does it not? “Think before you act!” is something we are taught as children. What interested me, as the child hearing those words, was that I was being directed to think first but not necessarily during, my actions. Somehow, I knew to break down the instruction into its essence. SHE guided that, certainly.

Conventional wisdom dictates that we consider the consequences before taking an action. This mental conditioning is called wisdom for a reason. What we forget is that this form of “reason” is a learning tool for the process of being in this world. We are conditioned to believe, “if this, then that.” We learn about consequences and how our teachers learned to avoid those that are unwanted. But, how might SHE teach us to navigate another way? Is fear of unwanted consequences the best way to live? Is it any way to be?


This is our current learning cycle. An initiation point, a reset, if we let it be so. The new moon / Bealtaine alignment is an opportunity to pay more attention. It brings clarity. Clarity of focus on what matters. What is the fastest way to find out? Relax into the little things, and observe where goes the flow. Where does your focus naturally take you? This will either be an ingrained pattern, or your natural, authentic, instinctual preference. The latter guides your way. How to tell the difference? How does it feel?

Few seek out the resistance issues that pain shows us. And yet, paradoxically, the last cycle was mentally ruled by “No pain, no gain.” SHE has patiently waited, guided, and comforted us through that transit. A transition that now needs to complete. {Celebrations in many dimensions!}

Say, the pain of a certain issue causes you to feel anger. The anger is there to show you something. Re-setting your inherent spiritual authority and power happens when you explore the root of any issue rather than taking it at face value or ignoring it. This observational deep dive brings you closer to whatever the issue is trying to show you. This sounds mental until it isn’t. Double entendre intended.

We can choose to let this Bealtaine alignment assist us in re-setting our lives! It is HER blessing ceremony, a purification by inner fire. As resistance burns, we are left with our purity of intent.


And so, we circle back to consequences. Consequences are circumstances. Circumstances need not be feared, only dealt with. Each moment holds an optimal action, solution, resolution, and reward {blessing}. Rewards are reaped by resting in Presence {the ultimate blessing}.

Here is one of HER breadcrumbs, baked for the occasion. “Thank you that SHE is present and has this moment well in hand. “ Let the gratitude fit the occasion… aspiring to let HER uplift every occasion.

And there we have it. A new practice. One of many. We can relax into gratitude, into HER safe space, and let HER light our way.

A blessed Bealtaine to one and all

May the Fourth, be with you!



Accelerated Ascension ~ Not what you Think

Accelerated Ascension ~ Not what you Think

Each turn of this year’s wheel marks an acceleration in the earth’s energies. What does that mean? The frequencies of Gaia are altering, shifting to new levels, and we with them. The coming Bealtaine alignment is yet another initiation into higher octaves of light. What to do? How to use this opening? Meditate. Be Present. Stay Open. By “open” I mean open to Source, the Universe, our Divine Mother, rather than to the people, places and things of ‘the world.’

Open is a strange concept within duality. We think, and therefore vibrate, ‘open’ and we also then vibrate ‘closed.’ And, so, our consciousness vacillates between these two polarized states or concepts.

A Different Now ~

A Different Now ~

I’ve just spent not quite three weeks in a power spot. Three weeks! Imagine! So much has shifted and changed it doesn’t bear tracking. I recalled, at one point, wondering what it would be like to live in such a place. Longing for it, in fact. Funny, when our dreams come true. Can one live in a crucible for any length of time? I’d like to find out. So would some of you. BUT we have to be kinder to our bodies. Letting a power vortex have its way with you isn’t always pretty. Shit happens. Sometimes literally. Always emotionally. And that is a good thing in a world where real feelings are suppressed and false ones harvested, more than not.

Entitlement, Reparations & Repairs ~

Entitlement, Reparations & Repairs ~

Since the Equinox, so for a fortnight or so, I have had bouts of memory show up. Memories of this life, mostly, thank goodness! It gets a little crazy-making when they show up from many all at once. And, I notice, the scenarios or montages are showing up in neat packages of threes. SHE is employing one of HER attention-getting devices. We have that one worked out, my mind, my awareness, my body and SHE. Though, as I am in blissful, much-needed stillness next to the sea, my heart is rejoicing, still these memories pop in.

I sometimes feel that SHE chooses moments when we are harmonized and at peace to show us things we would rather not remember or things we fear to see. I lost the fear of remembering anything long, long ago now. And so, I am more like Alice when the memories come. “Curiouser and curiouser.”

What To Do ~ "Take Heart"

What To Do ~ “Take Heart”

I’ve been asked that, over and over through the years, “what do I do?”. There is, literally, only one answer. Take heart. Take HER heart. It is ever freely offered.

The awakening process is, first and foremost, a process. There are no silver bullets, or instant manifestations, though the latter do show up from time to time. And, awakening is not achieved by an arduous climb up an impossible mountain, in search of an elusive promised treasure at the top. For those who buy into that myth, there will ever be mountains. I’ve enjoyed a good climb or three. And yet…

When SHE shows The Way, it is through the heart. Courage. A quality so-named for its resonance with “La Cœur / La Corazón”. “The heart”, in many languages. I used to think courage meant facing down all inner and outer demons no matter what or when. Funnily enough, it does, but not in any way my mind might have imagined. I imagined taking the bullets for the team, being the one to wear the Kevlar, making the ultimate sacrifice (du jour) in honor of the light… and so it does… but not that way.

There is another way.

HER way is that of steadfastness, yes; of forbearance, yes. Of martyrdom? NO!!!! No, no, no, no! Step away from the fires, children! The Divine Mother is a nurturing, guiding, gentling force. An Invincible Force, she is though. Once summoned, nothing stands in HER way.

SHE beckons us to follow our hearts. These paths, and there are oh, so very many, always lead us home. The heart leads us into HER, into HER heart.

There is heart in the natural world, the rocks, the seas, the earth, the trees and the creature beings, our allies, one and all! Last year, I was privileged to enjoy Elephant Dream-time. Sacred space, if ever was. The whales hold the same space, but in a different way. Their songs weave the world as one. This year I am further privileged to enjoy ‘roos, koalas, and cockatoos… imagine, to greet these beings in the wild! Oh frabjous day! A friend from the southern hemisphere, visiting me in California, felt the same way about raccoons, skunks, and foxes. How amazing to experience them as beings rather than photographs!

Today, I am privileged to be able to see the sea from this window, behind whose glass I am protected from cold, wind, and wave. And yet… HER waves are always with me. I feel the wind as its currents lift the air. I feel the waves and the light thereon. So do you, truth be told. You feel the growing movement of the trees, the greening and browning of the standing people, as Gaia’s seasons flow and change.t


I feel the movement of wind and light on water, even from where I sit. This is HER heart. We reside in HER heart, yet, so often, we recognize it not.

What rests in your heart today? Are you willing to let it out to play?

Mother made me. I am SHE. I am grateful.