What Does Immersion Mean?

What Does Immersion Mean?

What does it have to do with surrender? How does surrender play into immersion? Are you ready to be absorbed? And what dreams may come?

I am about to lead an immersion retreat, my first in the southern hemisphere. I’m that chuffed. The energies ‘down undah’ are so very different to those in the northern part of this world. I have found currents of Lemurian energy here that are stronger than elsewhere on the planet. It is as though the Ents still hold a bit of sway here, and, while they have had to forbear in the face of onslaughts like that of Saruman on Isengard and Fangorn, they have not gone to sleep, nor have they abandoned the trees they shepherd. SHE has not allowed this to happen here.

F.O.G. Lifter ~ And the Paradigm of Pushing Through

F.O.G. Lifter ~ And the Paradigm of Pushing Through

Back in the day, when I lived in the San Francisco Bay Area, there was, {still is} a coffee shoppe known as Peet’s. It franchised after awhile, as all good things seem to do. In those years, we, my sangha and I, stayed up late working on projects for our Teacher. Coffee was a THING… if you know what I mean.

A favorite flavor, only to be found from Peets, was FOG Lifter. Obvious reference to the fogs that frequent the bay aside, this was a favorite with many because of its strength, and the power to lift one out of any perceived state of exhaustion. Between our day jobs, work for our organization, and our foundational practices, there were many moments of deoletion. Many opportunities and reasons to want to be pushed through the FOG.

What We Refuse to See ~ is an Inconvenient Truth

What We Refuse to See ~  is an  Inconvenient Truth

Al Gore chose his title well. What we refuse to see reflects our worst fears. It is the thing that will most inconvenience our ego in any given moment or circumstance. When we are after an answer, especially in a difficult circumstance, and the answer seems to elude us, there is a single inconvenient truth. What about the real answer to the question is too uncomfortable to contemplate?

Grounded on Ego v. Grounded on Source ~

Grounded on Ego v. Grounded on Source ~

We are conditioned, as children, to ground on the ego. This means grounding on what we believe our identity to be. We learn this by entrainment, meaning we frequency-match what our parents do that we perceive works, or doesn’t. We observe how our caregivers function and build our foundations accordingly. The ego wants what it wants. It either demands or sacrifices those wants, according to how much either of these behaviors benefits it at the time. In this way, the ego becomes a master at transactional relating with all of life. Source does no such thing.

The more we ground on Source, the more our ego has no choice but to dissolve.

Egos do not evolve, they must dissolve.

Egoic grounding is based upon a double bind or deadly embrace of entitlement and abasement . Think of it as an egoic bubble whose base rests on this polarity: Entitlement and Abasement . The symbol of a circle with a line drawn under it works for this. In Egypt, this symbol was called the “Shen” ring. It symbolized eternal protection. The energetic structure represents a protected space within which one can function safely… meaning, in this case, the ego.

These structures must crumble ,when one contemplates being awake or enlightened.

Common conscious or unconscious belief: If enlightenment dissolves this structure, I won’t get to do/be/have what I want, therefore why would I surrender it into Source? This belief creates a holdout. We withhold a part of our essence from Source.

Food for contemplation: Does this egoic structure get to do/be/have what it wants now? Or is reward conditional on how the paradigm functions? Put another way, does this behavior really get you what you want? Or is it a negotiated truce in a battle which can’t be won?

There are no winners in transactional relating. Everyone is simultaneously deprived and owing. The score card tells the whole story. Its purpose? To allegedly get us what we want, whilst killing our Spirits.

Example: I do what others want, or make some kind of sacrifice so that others get what they want, which counts on the scorecard as putting my own ego aside. Therefore I am entitled to do/be/have what I want in the next round because I am now owed. This is the paradigm in a nutshell.

Abasement is only the flip side of overt entitlement. Say you’re a “people-pleaser.” You have embraced the doormat position {my wants/needs come last} only because there is logic conditioned into your personality that tells you this will get you what you want. Most people will argue for it. They are keeping the peace, sacrificing for team harmony, taking care of the family, or whatever. This is how they have learned to get what they want. But do they? Or, are these people not constantly stressed and frequently miserable?

Do you long to escape some part of your life? Why? And what is the price it exacts that makes you feel entitled to then have the things you want? Is that why you hold on?

I worked with a guy once, who said, “I’m a good husband and father. I provide for my family. They want for nothing. Therefore, I’m entitled to some strange ass once in awhile.” I asked him how we would feel if his wife felt the same way. “I’d break her face,” was his reply. Double binds come with double standards. What do you do, that you would “break your partner’s face” for? Or, is there another way?

How many of us have stated “I do things I don’t like because it gets me what I want?”

That logic only spins the web of this structure more tightly until we can’t move for strangling. Many people’s inflammatory conditions and histamine reactions come from this feeling of being imprisoned in a toxic web. The body reacts by trying to burn out or hose down the offending energies. Usually both.

Egoic grounding starts early. We begin to learn it in utero and the seeds sprout from there.

Take the example of a five-year-old. “I’m not hungry right now. “There is a meal on the table in front of the child who has been complaining of being hungry for ‘hours.’ . Child is told to “at least take one bite.” Child either throws a tantrum {which children seem to get to do overtly when most adults only wish they could} or takes the one bite. Child knows s/he will be hungry again in a little while but ignores parent saying that there will be no food between mealtimes. That information does not compute with the child’s learned entitled relating.

{How many of us have given a ‘child’ something, only to shut them up? How do you do that to/for yourself?}

A few minutes later, as the meal is being cleared away. the child pops back up to the table and points to what it wants. “Use your words” applies to the five-year-old within us all. So, one parent says, “No. You heard me. You eat while at the table. You chose to get up and now there will be no more food until the next meal.” The other parent, to whom the child immediately runs, tantrum about to be unleashed, says “Oh, you’re still hungry, okay…” This is triangulation. Transactional relating at its most manipulative.

Notice what this example makes you feel. Those feelings will lead you to the inner tantrum-throwing toddler that has you in its power.

Deprived Child: Oh, the poor thing!
Wounded Child: See? No one loves me or cares what I want no matter what…
Entitled Child: I want ‘that,’ so I should have it! {list of justifications is logic, learned later}

Give me what I want and I’ll let you have what you want, or, Give me what I want or I’ll make you sorry! When put this way, the energetic blackmail is easy to see. Why do we put up with it?

Under each of these emotional pathologies is an inherent sense of unworthiness, feeding and fed by a sense of entitlement. The abasement side of the foundation tells us we don’t deserve, we are unworthy, we are somehow incompetent, have to work harder than others, etc. The entitled side tells us that, as hard as we work, as much as we ‘do’, we deserve to be given to or to take what we want.

The tighter this loop the worse it feels, and the more our inner tantrums act out. Most of this is unconscious. That is not the good news! We are raised to believe that if we are not consciously acting out, we are doing well, or at least better than most. Therefore, you guessed it, we are entitled to be rewarded for good behavior even though, under the bonnet, the hornets stir.

Unconscious tantrums are every bit as damaging as conscious ones, both to the one throwing and to the target. How much energy is spent in this way? A fun exercise is to visualize the inner bathroom scale whose gauge points to energy expenditure. How much of the light that you are, do you spend maintaining this entitlement paradigm? Does that percentage seem reasonable? Practical? Even if you have no desire to wake up, it is an incredible waste of resources. Wouldn’t you want to consider tapping those in another way?

Gaia’s rising vibrations will make this necessary. It will be easier for you if you go with the rising tides.

If you feel you want to continue to live in this old, egoically based way, because it seems to work for you, or because you see no way out, think again. This bind is only growing tighter and tighter, more and more constructing, as Gaia’s frequencies soar.

The egoic foundation of entitlement/abasement pulls your vibration down to its level. You feel yoked to it, yet it only has the power you bestow upon it. You give it power. You can choose to stop.

Being yoked by Source, loosely translated from the word ‘yoga,’ which means union, is not an enslaved condition. It is the ultimate freedom from binds like this one.

Common Misperception: If I become enlightened, I won’t get to do/be/have what I want. Source will dictate everything and I will be miserable. This is what egoic-abasement feels like, not enlightenment. It is a fear woven from the old paradigm.

Truth: When we let Source run the show, life is easier. It is a huge and all-encompassing relief and release. SHE knows what we love. SHE knows what matters. These things will manifest, though typically not in the way we might have imagined, or chosen. Our manifestations will be better.

The transition can be a little rocky, depending on our holdouts and how long they persist. Holdouts are like the bags of ballast tethering a hot air balloon to the ground. If we only cut loose a few, the balloon’s rise will be skewed toward the ballast…until we release the holdouts.

The choice is ours. We can choose to release this egoic foundation from our minds and bodies, our awareness and our DNA. First, we choose. Then, we fashion an intent. Next, we decide to vibrate in alignment with this intent going forward. Finally, we commit to this course and to taking actions that are guided by Source… and no others.

{Not brushing one’s teeth doesn’t count. Enter the five-year-old. Maintenance is maintenance.}


As our programs dissolve, our mirrors become clear windows of perception. We see life as it is. Amazing, and filled with Infinite Possibilities.

What will we play next?

~ Namste ~

Victim/Judge and Self-Sabotage ~

Victim/Judge and Self-Sabotage ~

Not such a fun title, right? What if dissolving this dynamic let the FUN into the way your manifestations function?

The polarity of Victim/Judge comes from the Toltec tradition. It is full of double binds, traps and twists. Here are a few of them:

When I feel victimised, I an then entitled to lash out. It doesn’t make me a tyrant! {That is a judgement}

When I judge someone, it protects me from being victimised by the judgements of others.

Now for the juice: I feel victimised by the things I have said I want that are arriving, en masse, at my doorstep…I feel overwhelmed but will not admit it. So , consciously or unconsciously {usually the latter} I allow the things I don’t want to enter my home, my body, my field, because I know how to deal with those things. {Bad decision, anyone?}

A Portal of N.O.W. ~

A Portal of N.O.W. ~

Lughnasadh / Imbolc, and the Lion’s Gate… A magical opening into Presence. Today is, depending on your hemisphere, either Imbolc or Lughnasadh. A celebration of the Divine Mother’s gifts of life, in the form of first seeding, and first harvest, simultaneously aligned. The Lion’s Gate is both an arbitrary calendar marker, 8:8, and a shifting gateway said to be guarded by two lions, whose energies are amplified as our sun aligns with Regulus, the Heart of the Lion, in Orion’s belt.

These lions are known as Royal Sirian Lions, the “Lions of Yesterday and Tomorrow.” They are celebrated as Master Teachers of the pathways to the stars. Rather than guard our yesterdays or our tomorrows, these stellar beings hold a moving portal of pure Presence. They ‘guard’ the moment of N.O.W. The essence they hold is that of Nurturing the Oneness Within.

A Gift of Fire ~ Burning Down the 'House'~

A Gift of Fire ~ Burning Down the 'House'~

We have entered the realm of cosmic hilarity when we notice current context for things like, “Who recorded ‘Burning Down the House?’” and the answer is, ‘the Talking Heads.’ Oh frabjous day! Giggles in many dimensions.

In the East Indian traditions, it is said that an event of loss makes way for more and new to enter. For example, if there is a fire in the house and possessions are destroyed, those present do not grieve, but choose to celebrate what the inevitable arrival of newness.

When the cosmic blaze illuminates us, we may have been taught to cower, to flood the blaze with water or whatever antidote. Is this the best course?

Stillness and Sanctuary ~ Mastering Movement

Stillness and Sanctuary ~ Mastering Movement

All movement is born of stillness. Within every wave is a Stillpoint of Sacred Strength. The way we discover this place is by dropping in. The way we allow HER to navigate us through life is by becoming that sacred journey of stillness in motion.

This morning I read a new article by Jennifer Posada. Here is a relevant excerpt:

”In the rush of a busy wave when energies are at their height, we rarely feel it's possible to slow down, and sometimes we don't even want to. But there is a special magic in pausing to really feel the wave wash over you, and right now it would be more potent than ever to do so...I know my saying that won't suddenly stop a possibly high-intensity time for you, but if you are experiencing that intensity as we are still letting the fever of recent eclipse energies pass, then this is a golden opportunity. Not to deny or suppress the possible potency and energy of this time, but to work with it...I am not suggesting we need to suddenly shift our whole lives around, I am suggesting that it will create small (or even large) miracles right now to find even moments of sacred pause...to slow down even for short windows of time and let the change deepen in you.” ~Jennifer Posada


Sacred Pause…

Where is your Stillness and Sanctuary?

Jennifer’s mention of sacred pause is relevant to our NOW. The most recent wave of intensity has crested, and is making its way to shore. As it rolls around the world, we will experience the leveling of some structures and the regeneration of others. We are being taught the art of mastering movement through HER waves of intensity.

Many have enjoyed the image of being a beach ball, popping along on top of the tsunami, no matter how large, blissfully unaware of the size of the wave, because the wave is what provides the ball’s quantum direction.

Then, there is the cetacean technique, of diving below the wave and riding its depths, surfing the lifted waves of sand, undisturbed by surface turbulence.

These metaphors become tools we can use to surf our NOW. And… as in Star Wars… there is another.

There will always be an alternate tool, method, or solution, where SHE is concerned. What will assist us in our NOW is the art of the sacred pause. Roshini and the Scottie Nation have been much afoot these past few days, and spell this a bit differently. Sacred ‘paws’ provide secure earthing for our bodies as our spirits soar. Think of it as the deep cetacean dive and the beach ball bop as one and the same. Such an instant provides an anything-but-freeze-frame pixelated snapshot of multiversal reality, as it grinds our old perceptions into the sand and lifts our aspirations heavenward.

My Teacher once told me that in this lifetime, for me, the Altantis karmas were ‘up.’ Up for working through, releasing, and moving beyond. We all have our theme songs and variations on a scream for this life. And there are undercurrents. Sometimes rip tides, sometimes gently flowing depths, these are HER ways of navigating us through what we have set up for ourselves, and what Spirit has set up on our behalf. I have known for some time that most ‘setups,’ for me, are finished, Complete. I can now begin to recognize the deeper currents, for our planet, and for my infusion into its realities.

Within these waves of intensity, you can begin to recognize both the setups and the deeper currents that have held you in the configuraton of ‘you,’ supporting your learning and growing process.

Whilst here, in an eucalyptus forest, I have been so grateful for the trees. Survivors of Lemuria, these trees hold a special place in my healing process and my heart. Another favorite writer had this to say…

“We are all refugees. Every single human on this planet is a refugee from somewhere. By communing with eucalyptus trees we are embracing the energy of moving through cycles of time and place. We are empowered to embrace movement in time, space, and consciousness. We must not be fooled by the notion that since eucalyptus trees have roots that they are not masters of movement. When embraced, they can remind us that we are masters of movement as well.” ~ White Feather

Mastery of Movement has been one of the main undercurrents of my adventures here. I’m betting it has been one of yours as well. What have you learned from the wisdom of sand paintings? What have you learned about being the streaming being that you are? Always in motion, with Stillness at your core.

What a gift to be among these majestic beings! What a gift they have brought throughout my journey! Not until NOW did I fully appreciate their assistance. Surrounded by their embrace, I find the Stillness drawing me in. I have found that my writing voice wants only to pass on the preciousness of their silence within motion. Their mastery of the sacred pause within HER waves.

Hit the pause button if you dare. The forms it takes may surprise you. This lightness is beyond imagining. Released from conditioning, imprinting, and old constraints, the iceberg of consciousness is free to navigate new waters.

Wishing you joy in your journey ~ and always ~ sacred pause{paws} ,


A Test of Commitment ~

A Test of Commitment ~

Occasionally the moment arrives when our commitments to Spirit are tested. These moments rarely come in the ways we have been conditioned to believe they will. SHE does not ask us to martyr ourselves, to take on the pain of others, or to take on or carry anything we cannot handle. And SHE does not ask us to handle anything where SHE is not totally present, supporting us all the way.

A test of commitment comes as a validation of structural integrity. Is what we are building able to hold the weight of our convictions? Is our love strong enough? Will it hold up to what we ask of ourselves and our dreams?

Double Binds, Deadly Embraces ~

Double Binds, Deadly Embraces ~

A double bind in energy occurs when two equal and seemingly opposite vibrations are simultaneously locked together in a deadly embrace and pulling apart from one another with equal force. Maximum tension with both maximum and no effort involved. A perfect storm.

These locks in our programmed awareness form our deepest traps, tripwires, glitches and uncomfortable scenarios of every kind. They also form the foundations of what we know as real.

B.elief S.ystems ~ and how they function ~

B.elief S.ystems ~ and how they function ~

And why this is important.

A belief system, abbreviated B.S. in English, and on purpose, is a thought pattern that we argue for. There is benefit in our holding on. We are conditioned to believe that this is factual, true and our needs must keep it in place. Calling ‘bullshit’ here! Belief systems distort our perception of life.

When we have fixed belief systems, things can only be delivered to us through the gates of those systems. It is we who have set this up.

What I Know for Sure ~

What I Know for Sure ~

It’s all coming together. It’s all coming together. It’s all coming together!

I know it looks grim out there. Some days, internally as well. There will be shakeups and shakeouts and sorting and purging. The burning of Notre Dame cathedral, for example, is interesting in many dimensions. The overlays are {for the most part} burned away. ‘Our Mother of Paris’ is being returned, as a power spot, to the simplicity of Isis.HER ascended configuration. This has not been seen or felt on this world… for some time? Perhaps ever.

Do you recognise the starlight within you? You will. You will, indeed.

On Surrendered Power ~

On Surrendered Power ~

The sweeping wave of universal Yin, within which flows the All.

What is that wave? ‘They’ call it surrender. Light calls it intelligence.